Friday, 24 May 2013

Icarus remembering # 1


This is one of my favourite set of pictures and each one tells a story. But I am posting them again because today that little girl is twenty - hoots! And she is here in Brighton having managed to get out of Oklahoma before the tornado took out the neighbourhood next to her's - and indeed the cinema she was in last Friday (with a boy) is no more. Goodness, what a dangerous world we live in. And its not just the tornado is it, much more the Lacanian ISR triad of the Imaginary-Symbolic-Real. This reminds me in a way of Rumsfeld's, 
There are known knowns. These are things we know that we know. There are known unknowns. That is to say, there are things that we know we don't know. But there are also unknown unknowns. There are things we know we don't know.
However, as Slavoj Žižek reminds us, he forgot the crucial addition to this, which are the 'unknown knowns'; the things we do not know we know. This is precisely the Freudian unconscious, the 'knowledge which does not know itself,' as Lacan would say. And isn't that what the artist eventually produces; the book smarter than the writer, the poem smarter than the poet, the painting which reveals more than the artist knows they know, so that as writers all we can ever do is look back at what our art eventually tells us? Of course, it could be telling us, actually, you are no good at this writing malarkey  if only you listened you would save yourself so much time, grief and anguish. You could go on to do something else, perhaps even something worthwhile. And maybe I should... and  every now and then I can look over my shoulder and say to my old writer self, 'I remember you.' Only one music for that, I am hearing it as a duet between myself and that writer, about my 'knowledge which does not know itself,' singing, 'do you still have dreams, did they all come true...  :

Friday, 17 May 2013

Icarus pondering # 11

Taxi
Stellenbosch in the evening, looking for a way back home, we stumbled upon more street art, this time two suitcases full of hope. I was about to steal them and thought better of it - I have hope enough already. And indeed I have some to spread to others. This weekend my baby comes home from Oklahoma - oh yay, oh yay, oh yay! And I will be waving from a Heathrow terminal, shouting, 'I'll get your bags.' And in thinking about her I am reminded that she will soon be twenty but I have known her since she was being ventoused. Seeing her next day, all pink and swaddled reminds me of a poem by good Paul Hetherington (one of my faves) called 'Acts Themselves Trivial' which has the most amazing ending couplet:

Folding yet another nappy
from the flung pile
still warm from the line 
is remembering a twelve-hours-old
child, amazement, uncertainty...

as if acts themselves trivial
define the enormity of love.

The whole poem can be seen for free and bought here for only $2
which is a bargain. But my small, signed collection hosting this poem is another treasure that I carry in my suitcase of hope, which I hope I pass on as love - Taxi!

Monday, 13 May 2013

Icarus pondering # 10

10 - 9 - 8 - 7 - 6 - 5 - 4 - 2 - 1... (wot, no 3? where is she?)
The stars look very different today... planet earth is blue and so are me and you...
I do love someone with a sense of purpose, imagine flying through space with this idea... poetry in sound and motion. I am sure Bowie will be loving this... as am I

Friday, 10 May 2013

Icarus pondering # 9

A very good friend sent me this picture and I will pin it on my wall as a reminder that we can all be Icarus for a day... 
goodness...
its a long way down from up here...

Thursday, 9 May 2013

Icarus pondering # 8

Blue
I like ellipses, always have, the uncertainty of the unsaid and unsayable, or just the pretence that something profound exists in their appearance... when there may be nothing there at all. Alain de Botton writes in a chapter called Ellipses, 'There is an Arabic saying that the soul travels at the pace of a camel. While most of our self is led by the strict demands of timetables and diaries, our soul, the seat of the heart trails nostalgically behind, burdened by the weight of memory.' Well I just don't trust that. I mean is it the 'weight of memory' or the anticipation of future nostalgia? I like to anticipate nostalgia to come rather than dwelling on the past. Of course there are some who would say the opposite about me. Indeed have said the opposite, that in fact I am terribly nostalgic for the past but is it just ellipses... the stories of a nostalgic past that never actually existed, the rewriting of a past that never happened, the ellipses... that blur the world that did. Nostalgia, a return to a place that never existed in the first place; its the real life version of airbrushing. Ellipses allow for that... So when the questions arise, 'how was your weekend, your day, your life...' the answer is always...

Thursday, 2 May 2013

Icarus pondering # 7

How lucky am I # 2? Very lucky indeed, that's how lucky. I am just home from Cape Town and wow; strolling under an African sky; staring into Nelson's cell on Robben island; sipping Stellenbosch wine; chatting to young men and women full of hope, so full of hope on the Cape of Good, how lucky am I, lucky, lucky, lucky enough to post pictures like these below (look while listening to this) hopefully homeless no more:



Under an African moonlit sky
Slave bell

Stellenbosch

Street art

At last

Different circumstances

Table mountain from the ferry to Robben Island

Welcome to Robben Island

Nelson M's cell

Free at last

Free at last

Laughing lion

Light in the free world

The devil sends out a smoking challenge